of delude. detour n disheartened

If there's one thing that i hate most in the world, will be the feeling of being lied to. OR in other cases, deluded abt.

And if there's another thing to feel upmost distress, is to be lied to by those whom u held close to ur heart.

In addition to that, is to be lied to by ur closest n cant have the heart to feel anythin negative towards them.

its better to b held in circles by someone u hate than b deluded by ur closest fren.
at least, for the former, u can actually shoot daggers at them. but for the latter, the only target u can shoot daggers to, is urself. for trustin them so much, n yet being hidden in the dark.

sometimes, all it takes to get a favour, is to ask it out in the open.
instead of leadin the person on, n lettin her know ONLY when the truth cant b held on any longer.

n to b foolishly used as a shield, n only realising that u are ridden with holes when the archer told u that u r a hinderance to the target.

n the target telling u that u r to serve as a detour to the archer.



so, wad makes me of all these?

i am a detour, a roadblock, a shield.

sometimes im just plain sick to b a protector.
plain sick. sick to the stomach.
n ironically, Rae means protector of the wise.

yes, i think a foolish protector of the wise will b more fitting.