Worried about my NTU application.
Underneath all those gung-ho self-assurances and "no point worrying, wads gonna come will come"s, the insecurity of my future and dreams still bugged me to hell. Sure, of course i have been thinking of my contingency plans and alternative routes. But, it really sucks when you see your peers around you, achieving their dream courses, one by one. *Envy of others and disappointment of self.*
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No point regretting on my lack of effort during the As. Its not that im gonna do it again. No way.
The only way is to move on. Man, i gotta Be Strong.

Even for the routes less travelled by others.

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.i got in NUS Project and Facilities Mgt. It was my 2nd choice. Boss's advice was "Never Settle for the 2nd Best" And it all boils down to How much i want my 1st choice.

Will i be "dead" if i didnt get wad i want?
Hell no.

I will Survive.
Of course, i will.

Sickening, i want to go NTU business!!!!

Bang my head n get in.


This is something that i Really want.
Period.

I promise i will slog my ass off for 3 years if i get in.

Goal: Hospitality and Tourism. Climb the corporate ladder.
Mission: Find a Way to get there.
Objective: Life's Fufilment. Personal Satisfaction.
Project Description/ Contingency Plan
: 1. NTU BBA
: 2. Part Time Degree

Route 3: Proj n Fac. Mgt may not bring me where i wanna go in the future.
Sure, it will give me a rice bowl. No doubt in that. But will i benefit from this 4 years? Is this something that i really want? No. Or is my mind swayed by my boss's analysis?
If i have reservations before i even get in the course, wads gonna happen when i actually study the course? 4 years and 25K are too precious to lose. Honestly, i dont mind learning this course. But, im not too sure if this course matches with my career goals.

Goodness, should i go talk to Vivienne Chua?
Or maybe i should go find Mr Maideen.